12 days past IUI

Yesterday was a bummer to see my temp dip way down. Then I started thinking about it and wondering if it's to late for implantation. I posted a couple posts on the fertility websites and knew I still have more waiting to do. I just felt it was weird never in the almost two years has my temp dipped below the cover line like that. This morning I took my temp and it was back up there. I'm praying it stays up there. I was able to get from a consensus that implantation can happen anywhere from 5-12 DPO, so for the dip to happen at 11DPO maybe just maybe I might have a chance. I had dinner with a girlfriend last night that just found out she is pregnant and I found myself comparing my symptoms to hers. I had a dizzy moment yesterday and the day before was going potty all the time. I'm trying so hard to not get my hopes up and I'm terrified to test, I don't want to see another BFN. We are suppose to get a foot of snow starting today and going into tomorrow. I LOVE snow and have not seen a good snow since I was a child. It would be amazing to have all that snow, it's Christmas time and we get a Christmas miracle!!! Fingers Crossed and praying hard!

10 days of waiting

So we are now 10 days post Ovulation and I'm just waiting. I'm getting the normal symptoms though and I'm afraid to say this cycle might not have worked either. I still find myself asking why, why not us. Why is it so hard for us to conceive and so easy for others. It's tough, infertility and not knowing what is preventing us from having a baby.
I do need a break from things but then part of me wants to keep trying but I feel we are spinning our wheels and it might just be best to stay on the Metformin and hope my body regulates it's self and just save save save for IVF. I really think that might be the only way we will be able to conceive and to think we were soooo close to having the IVF/ICSI procedure done just a month ago. If I could just ovulate on my own that would be a miracle in it's self. Ehhh this too shall pass....

4 days down....

So we are 4 days past ovulation. We went in on Sunday am to have our first of two procedures done. Dr. S said the sample looked excellent. Way to go hunny! The procedure was done about 8:15am. I had some cramping during the procedure and then after for sure. We went home ate some breakfast and took a nap all three of us, Bailey our fur baby included. I woke up at 10:30 with sharp stabbing pains and was bloated like crazy! I was thinking it was ovulation but it’s early it’s not suppose to happen until tomorrow. I was uncomfortable and moody all day long.
Monday morning we get up to have our second procedure. Things again went well, hubby sample was good and the procedure was painless no cramping or anything. When I took my temp that morning I had a huge spike meaning I was right I did ovulate yes day., WHEW am I glad we went yesterday morning too this time. I’m praying it’s good sign.
So now it’s the dreaded 2 week wait. I’ve been taking the prenatal vitamins like always and also have been taking the 500MG of Metformin. I also picked up some Cran=Pom juice to help with uterine lining and have been drinking it for a couple days it’s good stuff. It’s only 15% juice though and I read to night it needs to be 100% juice. I think a trip to Kroger will be in order this evening. Dr. S told me to test in 14 days which would be December 20th. I think that sounds good, that way it’s not too close to Christmas if it’s negative. Positive vibes though I hope all of this works, those that have a hard time conceiving put them selves through soooo much!

Here we go

I went back to the dr yesterday and our 12mm follie grew to 15mm. He gave me another 375 units for a boost and told me to take the Ovidrel shot to trigger ovulation tonight. We are scheduled for our IUI's tomorrow am at 8 and then again on Monday at 8:30. I'm excited and really hoping there is a difference between the Clomid I was taking and the injects we took for the first time this cycle. I want so badly to be able to tell family on Christmas we are expecting. I hope my dreams and wishes come true!

GRR yell Grrrr!

So I have been to the Dr office 4 times now for check ups. This past tuesday he said I have one follie on my left at 12mm and one follie on my right at 7mm. He gave me 225 units for a boost and then 150 units to take last night. I went back this am and nothing has changed. On the left I have a 6,7,8 and 12 and on the right a 6 and 7. GRRRRRR!!!
I had total meltdown today I cried for about 45min straight and of course could not go back to work with puffy eyes and no make-up. He told me to take 375 units tonight and I go back for the fifth time tomorrow. I have mixed emotions today I'm tired of doing this and not getting anywhere. I hate that I've had to use so much medicine from the dr office, who knew it would take my body this much to do anything. I really really want a baby very bad but I can't help but think how much weight will be lifted off my shoulders after this last try at conceiving if it does not work. In a way I'm ready to not be on meds, not chart every day and actually have my life back. It's on my mind every day because it has to be and I'm tired of it having to be almost for two years. So this is really it, I just can't handle it anymore and need to remove myself from my life long dream of being a Mom for a while. Guess we will see what happens tomorrow. Each day at a time, right?

In the middle of our last cycle for the year

This morning I went for our second cycle check up. I started 75 units of Gonal-F on November 18th, my period had not started but our RE said it would be ok to start anyways. Go figure two days later I get my period. I continued taking 75 units through November 22. I had an appointment on the 23rd and had some follies but they were still small. RE wanted me to increase Gonal-F for the next four days to 150 units. I do not have enough medicine for four more days at 150 units and we have spent so much on meds we have no more money to buy anymore. I took the three days of 150 units and then on the fourth day I took what was left 75 units. I went for a second check up this morning and still have follies and still are not big enough. RE wants me to continue on 150 units. He was kind enough knowing our financial situation to give us Bravelle starting today through Monday the 30th and wants to see me on Tuesday the 1st of December. I'm praying so hard that this will do it and when I go on Tuesday we will have follies at the size we need them to be. I'm still on the Metformin and hoping that will help too!

ALL I want for Christmas is a BFP!!!!!!! Praying and wishing for a Christmas miracle for us!!!

Scratch that idea!

Ok so we have a change in plans. After contacting the IVF Dr and him adding a couple more meds our total quickly jumped up to over $1800.00 to order out of the US. If were were to order the meds in the US we would have been looking at $3000.00. We just don't have that kind of money and after talking about it we deicded to not try to squeeze in an IVF/ICSI cycle before the end of the year. We decided instead to stay local and on Metformin and add Gonal-F injections with back to back IUI's. We ordered the meds this past friday and they will be here this Friday or next Monday. We kept our appointment with our local Dr for all the baseline work.

I feel better now, I've been reading on fertilityfriend.com how women we having better luck after doing Clomid/IUI with no luck and moving to injections/IUI and getting pregnant. I'm excited and I'm praying that this will work and that my body will respond better. We have decided after two years this January after countless medicines, trips to the Dr office and procedure we have had enough for a while. I want to stay on Metformin and maybe that will help me regulate and at least have a chance at ovulating on my own.