Summer is here and it's a different me!

It’s been a while since I have checked in. Things sure have been busy with the two jobs and all. I’ve been dieting and working out since May 3rd and since then I’ve lost 10 1/2lbs. I’ve lost 18.5lbs from my heaviest weight earlier this year. I feel sooo much better. I like what I’m eating and I’m enjoying the Biggest Loser Cardio Max DVD, that’s what is making this so doable. I’ve done nothing but make excuses for not eating right and working out and now I’m doing it, working a second job and the normal wifely duties. No one said it would be easy but its sooo rewarding! I’ll be going up to 500MG of Metformin tomorrow, I’ve been on 250MG for a month now one would think I would be use to it by now. I’m on Cycle 20 since we have started trying for a baby and I know it will happen in time, I just have to be patient. Now that I’m not doing all the fertility meds and doctors appointments I’m actually enjoying my life. I feel so encouraged and I know I just have to keep pluggin!! My goal weight is 40lbs away and I can do it!!!!

Keep on truckin

I feel so encouraged right now. I started Metformin on April 20th and have only been taking 250MG. Around that date I kicked the diet soda and switched to water and started walking at work on break. The last time I weighed myself was on 2/25, I weighed on 5/5 and was down 9 pounds which was huge for me!! Considering I have done nothing but gain weight since we started trying in 2008.

I started my low carb diet on 5/3 and also started working out 3 times a week with the Biggest Loser DVD and since 5/3 I've lost another 2 pounds. I'm down 11 pounds and just loosing that little bit I can feel a difference. This gives me encouragement to keep going. Ideally I'd like to loose another 48 pounds, I know it will take a while but I'm heading in the right direction.

As for my chart it dropped low like it normally would before ovulation. I didn't take my temp on Saturday the 8th and I’m now kicking myself. My temp on Sunday was a degree higher than normal but then on Monday the 10th dropped down half way. I'm not sure if I ovulated or not, my temp is higher than it was last week so maybe just maybe I did ovulate??!??

The day I ovulate on my own for the FIRST time ever, I'm throwing a PARTY!!!

Trying to turn things around :)

Now that PCOS is a part of me I'm trying to change things to make life a little easier. I started walking everyday at work. I'm weaning my self off of Diet Coke, I have a small amt in the morning and then it's water for the rest of the day. Also today I started my Biggest Loser DVD I'd like to do that a least once every other day. Mom and I are going grocery shopping tonight. She is a health nut and is going to help me start making smarter choices. I'm still on the 250MG of Metformin XR and I think I will bump myself up to 500MG this week. Slow and steady changes, I have to do this for my health. I want to be healthy and want to start before things get out of control.
Although the last 2 years and 4 months have been tough I have learned so much about why we are not getting pregnant and I should have considering we spent over $2200 last year alone out of pocket. 18 cycles behind me and I'm trying to stay strong. I think with everything we have been through it has made me a strong person. I'm trying to stay positive and know one day when it's right it will be our turn to be parents.

Cycle #19

So for this cycle I'm starting back on Metformin. This time I'm doing the XR and it has been rough. I don't remember having this much of an issue on the regular Met. I'm only taking 250MG and I gradually easing myself into it. The first night was 500MG and was not a fun night at all, it was awful. I'm sure it didn't help I took it with pasta. Anywho, I know what I need to do, I need to lose weight and eat better and take this medicine. My side effects of PCOS are out of control so I need to take control. It's crazy how this has all popped up recently after not taking anything since Dec of 09. I need to talk more with Dr. Max so I can figure out how to control some of the side effects of PCOS. I've been reading a lot on the soulcyster.com website and learning some secrets. I'm going to start temping tomorrow and will increase the Metformin XR in a week or so. I'm taking things slow this time, changing my thinking, diet and body. PCOS will not beat me!!

A new start!

It's been a while since I posted, in January 2010 we had been trying for two years to have a baby. In December of 09 we did the last double IUI with injections, it didn't work so I gave everything up. I stopped taking all meds even my prenatal vitamins and didn't go back to the RE Dr. S. I was so upset I hadn't gotten one BFP at all in the past two years. I was not ready to do anything until recently. I needed to have my yearly appointment anyways and decided I'd go back to the drawing boards with my regular, since I was 16 years old OB, Dr. Max.

So here I go on April 2nd to see my awesome OB, he did a very through exam. Physically everything felt normal. He asked me to let him know what has gone on the past year in 2009. I explained our 5 more Clomid cycles only responding to 3 and having the other two cancelled. Two at 100mg and three at 200mg with one last injections IUI cycle. He was shocked with all we have been though in the last 2 years. He really listened and was genuinely concerned and upset for us. He was also very shocked Dr. S had me on 200MG of clomid after all the Clomid I had already taken. He said only once in his 27 years he had a patient that had been on 200mg. He wanted to do an ultrasound due to all the clomid and to see what's going on in there. I have been officially diagnosed with PCOS, on the ultrasound he said my right ovary is more PCOS than my left but yes it does look like PCOS. He suggested I go back on Metformin, I asked for the extended release version and he wrote me a RX. He also wanted my testosterone, pituitary and thyroid checked. I gave 6 tubes of blood to be tested. Metformin would take 3 months before I see a change if any and he wants me to start taking my temp again. I will start Provera soon to end my 106 day cycle and start the Metformin with my new cycle. I pray that this will make me ovulate on my own that would be wonderful. He said to give it 6 months and we will see what my body does. No more Clomid for right now. Feel very positive after my check up with him and excited to have an answer even if it is PCOS at least I can do something to try to treat it. Stay tuned.....

12 days past IUI

Yesterday was a bummer to see my temp dip way down. Then I started thinking about it and wondering if it's to late for implantation. I posted a couple posts on the fertility websites and knew I still have more waiting to do. I just felt it was weird never in the almost two years has my temp dipped below the cover line like that. This morning I took my temp and it was back up there. I'm praying it stays up there. I was able to get from a consensus that implantation can happen anywhere from 5-12 DPO, so for the dip to happen at 11DPO maybe just maybe I might have a chance. I had dinner with a girlfriend last night that just found out she is pregnant and I found myself comparing my symptoms to hers. I had a dizzy moment yesterday and the day before was going potty all the time. I'm trying so hard to not get my hopes up and I'm terrified to test, I don't want to see another BFN. We are suppose to get a foot of snow starting today and going into tomorrow. I LOVE snow and have not seen a good snow since I was a child. It would be amazing to have all that snow, it's Christmas time and we get a Christmas miracle!!! Fingers Crossed and praying hard!

10 days of waiting

So we are now 10 days post Ovulation and I'm just waiting. I'm getting the normal symptoms though and I'm afraid to say this cycle might not have worked either. I still find myself asking why, why not us. Why is it so hard for us to conceive and so easy for others. It's tough, infertility and not knowing what is preventing us from having a baby.
I do need a break from things but then part of me wants to keep trying but I feel we are spinning our wheels and it might just be best to stay on the Metformin and hope my body regulates it's self and just save save save for IVF. I really think that might be the only way we will be able to conceive and to think we were soooo close to having the IVF/ICSI procedure done just a month ago. If I could just ovulate on my own that would be a miracle in it's self. Ehhh this too shall pass....